hello.

09/15/2014

  • me to all my friends: YOU CAN DO IT. YOU MAKE YOUR OWN LIFE. LET'S DO THIS TOGETHER. COME ON!!!
  • me to myself: you fucking piece of shit you will amount to nothing nothing is worth it your feelings are irrational go sleep for 22 hours

09/08/2014

this weekend we went to a music festival and i changed the part in my hair.  exciting times!

this weekend we went to a music festival and i changed the part in my hair.  exciting times!

09/04/2014

08/31/2014

❤️❤️ Choo ❤️❤️🚂

❤️❤️ Choo ❤️❤️🚂

08/25/2014

HEY Y’ALL WANNA KNOW WHAT’S TOUGH AS SHIT

eldiabloconcarne:

  • Having been abused as child, plus
  • Raising a ~spirited~ toddler, plus
  • Sticking to gentle/attachment parenting

(via hippypotter)

08/19/2014

08/14/2014

my new job is in the suburbs of chicago.  i drive mostly every day to and from the office.  it’s boring and sometimes long.  i have started listening to music from my old ipod that hasn’t been updated in about 5 or 6 years.  all music from the peak of my music listening career.  a song came on that i love, but also that signifies one of the darkest days of my life.  and i listened to it, while crying, stuck in traffic in the north chicago suburbs.  that was the song i was listening to when i knew, just knew, that i was going to die.  that i was going to kill myself and be done with it all. the first time.  there was a second time i made that promise to myself, and in classic me fashion, did not own up to said promise. thankfully.

i wasn’t crying, this time along, because of sadness. but because it was the first time i realized that had i done that, i wouldn’t have what i have now.  there’d be no loving husband, or perfect son who i adore.  when we are in the depths of depression and sickness, there’s no possible way to think about anything else but those depths and the hopelessness.  i don’t know how i made it.  i don’t.  but i am so happy i did. 

that was last week.  this week has made me ponder all of this further.  i can’t say how sad i am.  or how this changes anything.  i can say the same thing everyone else who has been through it knows.  it’s always hard to lose someone to the fight. to the illness. 

all i want to do is focus on the good things, the things that make me want to live.  so, here’s to the future.

Life

08/11/2014

(Source: lovegoods, via themotherrunner)

08/08/2014

me irl

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07/01/2014

we’ve got an enormous toddler on our hands.

i am leaving my job to work at another, better job.  i am going from a non-profit medical society to a well-known luxury furniture store corporate office.  it’s extremely exciting. i get to go back to doing what i love, but it is also longer hours and less time with the boy.  i already felt like i had no time with him.

also, i am constantly ill in some way.  stupid toddlers.

maddifacee:

every summer

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oh, what a difference a year makes.

oh, what a difference a year makes.

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